My Whispered Tears

2011-12-21T19:13:00.001-08:00

And Now................. My bestie Sankari wants to see my blog!!! Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh...

It happened again!!

2011-05-17T11:10:00.000-07:00

This is not de first time my bestie's bf did this to me!!! I wonder how people can be like this. What a weird world?! I salute Sank for being de most strongest woman to take this kind of character as her life to be. Its only 2 days left for their big day and i have already start hearing de craps i never wanted to. Probably i shud have drawn de line. But than again why ME who shud always think im de one who has to compromise within and accept all shit that comes de way. This is just so bullshit. Just hated de tone and de words he put across. To hear de things he said earlier was like taking the heart out and stabbing it, tearing it apart into zillions pieces. If its not for my bestie i wud not have done all these. Anyway i still want de best for her and no compromises in that. Its just that now, der has been a long scratch in de happiness that i had harbored all these while. I am such a pain in my own life. Sometimes being de nicest person just brings you more troubles. One after one, Oh gosh!! Pls get me thru this. I so badly wanted to share this to someone and pour out everything but luckily i didnt. So i decided to just write and vent it out!!! Aaaarghgh!!!

I am negative

2011-05-17T10:51:00.000-07:00

My boyfriend said i am full of problems. I always talk about problems to him. After a bad argument we spoke yesterday. He decided to quit SSP or rather take a break from it. He said he could not handle the stress and for the fact that we always quarrel becos of SSP. He wanted to focus on his full time career and studies. No doubt its never easy without him, I will remain strong and composed. I was always de acting man at home and now i will be for my SSP. We tried to clear de air between us. He was as usual quiet at times to talk. I was waiting to hear him out and very little i did. And back to where i started, he mentioned im filled with problems and im sharing all that to him. I was crushed to actually hear it from HIM, and like i said i just shut my emotions within me... It took me a while to completely come to reality that im just too emotional as compared to him who is always very practical. And that is gona bring me no where. He has his life too and i do not have de entire space in it. Well, i understand. Communication and commitment which i feel de most essential in life are both lacking in us. Ive tried and at a point of time you just wana drop. I have to stop expecting but be on my own which can be really painful sometimes. Maybe i shudnt just start talking about EVERYTHING thats happening in my daily life just like that or maybe my problems. Anyway he's right. No one likes to hear problems always. Its not over for me, I will just write instead of talking. That might resolve both parties concerns.

Next in the line my special frend Sel said nowadays i am very negative and im sending him negativity.... OOOooooops....!! I didnt realise it. I failed to realise many things... He's already married and he has his life and expecting things to be always normal between us is probably just abnormal. He was one who always hear me out good or bad. I miss him alot cos he was one who never failed to understand me and what i am going thru. I remember those times where de moment de fon is on our ears, we wud be going round de world a million times. So much to talk sometimes we never came back to where we started. Im so used to that kinda life where i never kept things to my heart. Now, we dunt have time and space to talk as before. I feel lonely... As though im just left alone. I dun really like to share my problems with my frends as they have already got a sack full of. Sel and me had another argument along that line and ya... that was when i realized i was a negative impact to him recently and that was de last thing i ever wanted to hear. So i shud stop being sad and angry but always be HAPPY!! or mask myself to be Happy... It shudnt be hard i guess.

In conclusion, i shud just shut my mouth and walk de path life brings me and stop sending negativity into one's life be it anyone. Lesson learned of the week!! Always be "Happy" which what everyone wants to see on de outside....

2011-05-15T17:33:00.001-07:00

Lost in de lalang

2011-05-15T10:31:00.000-07:00

I'm thinking.... How can I organize my emotions??? It's so bitter tat it has become forcefully my friend, I like it or not. It's an internal battle. A matter of survival. My life is not as fun as it seems outside. Too many cuts and wounds yet to heal. Tears are welled up in my eyes, my heart is seeking for vengeance for all it has suffered all these years and still is. My vengeance is eating me up part by part. My sorrows n pains have no death. They will exist as long as I do. How can I escape it?????

Imbalanced

2011-05-02T09:22:00.000-07:00

It was an awesome labor day public holiday (Monday) at JB wid Sankari darling, friends, cousins and Prak. We saw lots of stuffs. Villas restaurant was simply finger licking good. Sankari's wedding blouse was so damn pretty!! Cant wait to see her dressed up. It was reallya funny day... Hearty laughters!! Prak and I had our own sweet time getting surprised with de kind of shops we always wanted to see. Now we have reasons to drop by JB more. I hated de pet shop where they had de cats in de cage. Irritated Pam, vented her yucky-ness as usual... Fat cats were least bothered about me even after knocked several times. Grgrgrgr. I didnt have de heart to come back but we had to leave before 6.30pm to avoid de jam at de customs. Prak and me intend to visit de "abangs" to "lepak" de next saturday after voting early in de morning. Probably it will a good start for sharing!! We got lots to sort though. Hmmm probably I have got alot to sort myself.

I have to stop myself or at least slowly get over things running in my mind and heart. Its just an incomplete feeling. It feels shit but i just do not wana lose what i have today. Its very tough to forget and move on but it is a must-to process. I must remind myself everything else happened or happening is just temporary. Things you thought will be there for you may really not be there and things you least expected to be there will be there for de rest of your life. Okay... Im cutting de emo kid Pam here.

Today, I had a good 3k run, met Sank and Maraicar together with de emcee. Everything's falling in place. Emcee seemed entertaining and he knew his stuffs. I believe he would rock de night. Just as i thought it was all about it, we've got more stuffs lined up for this week to be done with. We've decided on a video montage. Now, I have to get de footages collated. A new fun theme is incorporated in which we have to look into more ideas for de entrance and walkway.This event is gona be mind blowing!! God Bless

2011-04-30T09:02:00.001-07:00

I read this somewhere

2011-04-30T01:30:00.000-07:00

Source - From a aching heart

It feels like going around de roller coaster again and again. When there are high times, there definitely be de low times. Im bored... Maybe more than bored, I feel sad. I know how u will feel when its your turn. I know its not gona be easy. I feel like writing... Im writing.. Thinking of you in every line that i write. I miss you. Im lonely. It feels empty again... without hearing you. It is gona be a year in a couple of months. Times flew so fast. Life has moved on. So have I and you. But de memories are locked inner. Truth is, I always Love you. We fight, we leave. I walk a far distance to realise that you have chained my legs. I cant leave you and im not sure why it is difficult for me. I was Happy in your presence. As i reach heights, I never failed to turn back to see if you are cheering for me. My emotions are hugging me tight once again. Im waiting for your phone call... I cant wait to say "Hello". I messaged you. Its 1hr 15mins. I havent heard from you. Its a jinx. It was around de same period of time. Im here at de same place doing de same thing. I hope im still in your mind and even if im not.....

Now i remember that painful incident again. Weighing machine spoiled. Cudnt detect my weight. It was weird and funny. I cudnt laugh cos i was left with only a few more mins to hold you tight in my hands. We took pictures. But i didnt look good in any. You left and everything changed after that.

Im leaving now to meet them.

Wat a day!

2011-04-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

Thank God it was a much better ending. My stupid alarm died on me in the morning. I woke up late. Rushed big time. Super hot day. Ran on my heels to catch the damn bus. Reached work Late. Of all days, my boss had to be early at his seat today. *Sighs... Not even settled down, I had to hear phone ringing so loud and it had to be a problematic case. Aaaaaaaargh!!! Half my morning was burnt but i didnt miss my breakfast. Great Horlicks and tuna sandwich! Oh yea.. I had compliments on my way down to level 5 that my green dress was nice. *winks. Coffee Aunty and Israel hunk were cracking jokes and made my wait worth.

And "he" had to come by... grgrgrgr That indian guy who stays near my place and works at my place.. He never fail to shy when he sees me.... LOLS he would see me in the corner of his eyes and guess thats romance for him. *Rolls Eyes! Then he will have to let me know his presence or he will have to let me know his presence. ya... He MUST LET ME KNOW HIS PRESENCE. He never gives up. His phone will definitely ring and i can hear his voice... "Blah Blah Blah" Oh!! And he went an extra mile today... he opened the door at the cafe and waited for me to walk out... I got back to my level and then to my seat..

I was so busy but calls never stopped coming in. includes my personal calls. Ivy calling from Lithan Hall " Hey Pam have you paid Satya's application fees.... Blah blah blah..... ok today 6pm", Linda Called" Hey Pam... Have you paid YOUR application fees? U have to start sch next week......... ok today at 5.30pm", Call after calls... Couldnt handle. I was stressed. That led to that small mistake i did at work. It just slipped out of my mind. Out of so much tensions i still remembered that no matter what i have to leave at sharp 12 for lunch!!! Yes... I was excited! I ran on my heels again... But this time for a better reason. I met Sel and Anitha at their workplace. Had a super great lunch with them. Felt so much better. And everything went smooth at work after that. *Phew! Waited for 5pm... And de Angry bird was set free.... Thanks to Prak for being so patient with me in all my decision makings and running of errands. Guess i was little more talkative today. oooops!

And not forgetting today's highlight. Finally i made that decision! Bachelors of Commerce with double major in Management and Marketing!! Im ready for the next phase of life. Bring it on!!

Im back cos i love you

2011-04-25T21:51:00.000-07:00

Its been sometime I visited de whispered tears. I missed it though. Well, its not like i've got alot to say now... Hopefully I find some time to keep up with my blogger friends especially the dear one who feels she is less important to me which is not the truth. Love when its true cannot be erased nor forgotten. Hmm... I dun noe where to start but i definitely have the solution for this and my return here will give you an answer, how much you mean to me. :)

Exam Stress

2010-05-02T20:41:00.000-07:00

Although its gona be my last paper tomorrow, i'm not feeling any jolt of excitement within me. I'm still crestfallen for the Macroeconomics paper that i did on Friday. Paper seemed pretty tough for me to get any high distinction this time round. It'll at least be a big relieve if i can make through this whole crappy module. I was hardly able to recall anything that i studied. At point of the paper i was thinking if its a test for the students English or Macoecons itself. Honestly i was totally paralyzed with fear that i'm gona retake this module. Hope to see some blessing in disguise when i'm gona open my results page in a month to come. *Sobs

Anyway i've to tell myself to be more serious in de near semesters to arrive. All i've to do is to give my TODAY a perfect burn and get through my TOMORROW's last paper, History of Management Thought. After which is Loves & Parties!! Gona be in high spirits for the next few days. Its time for some serious alterations in life. Time for wisdom, to make decisions. Most importantly, time for some catch ups with my gd OLD frends. *winks

Enough said, i'm saying goodbye to my whisperedtears as for now and shall return after de last paper.
PS: Its time for a kit kat based chocolate cake to rejuvenate.
*ADIYOS

2010-04-29T03:50:00.000-07:00

Oh woooah, oh woooooah, oh wooooah, oh.
You know you love me, I know you care,
you shout whenever and I’ll be there.
You want my love, you want my heart
and we will never ever ever be apart.
Are we an item? girl quit playing,
we’re just friends, what are you saying.
Said there’s another, look right in my eyes,
my first love broke my heart for the first time.
And I was like…

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Justin Bieber]
Oh, for you I would have done whatever,
and I just can’t believe we aint together
and I wanna play it cool but i'm losing you
I buy you anything, I buy you any ring,
and im in pieces baby fix me and you shake me til’ you wake me from this bad dream.
I’m going down down down down
and I just can’t believe my first love won’t be around.
And I’m like…

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

[Ludacris]
Luda, When I was 13 I had my first love,
there was nobody that compared to my baby
and nobody came between us, no-one could ever come above
She had me going crazy, oh I was star-struck,
she woke me up daily, don’t need no Starbucks.
She made my heart pound, I skip a beat when I see her in the street and
at school on the playground but I really wanna see her on the weekend.
She knows she got me dazing coz she was so amazing
and now my heart is breaking but I just keep on saying….

[Chorus]
Baby, baby, baby oooooh,
like baby, baby, baby noooooooo,
like baby, baby, baby, ooooh.
Thought you’d always be mine, mine (repeat)

Now I’m gone,
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,
now I’m all gone.
Gone, gone, gone, gone, I’m gone.

Who sits in de Cabinet??

2010-04-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

I 've been with the Ministry of Manpower for some time. Working there was a pride. There were times i hoped for some 'Tom' on de road to ask me where do i work and i could just use that 3 letters, MOM. Some in utter disbelief would repeat "MOM...?" However this pride backfired me one day when someone said " Woaw!! Really...? Thats cool. Blah Blah Blah.... (after 5 mins) Hey anyway who is the Minister for Trade & Industry?" I was like Hmmm....Good question. Sorry dude i aint sure. *Smiles

And she has to go, " Huh?? You say you work in MOM, but you dun know who is the Minister for Trade & Industry ahh!!" ( a typical chinese girl who speaks good engRish) That was de super bad damage of my Tuesday morning.

I totally agree that its kinda tough to remember names and dates in mind. But i realized how important it is to know about the leaders who have been pillars behind our TODAY. And thats de reason for today's research finding on who sits in de cabinet.

*Now if you wana know more information about them and how they look like please proceed to click on their name.

At present (2010), Cabinet comprises the following members:

Mr Lee Hsien Loong

Prime Minister

Mr Goh Chok Tong

Senior Minister

Mr Lee Kuan Yew

Minister Mentor

Prof S. Jayakumar

Senior Minister and Co-ordinating Minister for National Security

Mr Wong Kan Seng

Deputy Prime Minister and Minister for Home Affairs

Mr Teo Chee Hean

Deputy Prime Minister and Minister for Defence

Mr George Yong-Boon Yeo

Minister for Foreign Affairs

Mr Mah Bow Tan

Minister for National Development

Mr Lim Boon Heng

Minister, Prime Minister's Office

Mr Lim Hng Kiang

Minister for Trade and Industry

Mr Lim Swee Say

Minister, Prime Minister's Office and Secretary-General NTUC

Dr Yaacob Ibrahim

Minister for the Environment and Water Resources

Mr Khaw Boon Wan

Minister for Health

Mr Tharman Shanmugaratnam

Minister for Finance

Dr Ng Eng Hen

Minister for Education and Second Minister for Defence

Dr Vivian Balakrishnan

Minister for Community Development, Youth and Sports

Mr Raymond Lim Siang Keat

Minister for Transport and Second Minister for Foreign Affairs

Mr K Shanmugam

Minister for Law and Second Minister for Home Affairs

Mr Gan Kim Yong

Minister for Manpower

Mrs Lim Hwee Hua

Minister, Prime Minister's Office and Second Minister for Finance and Second Minister for Transport

RADM(NS) Lui Tuck Yew

Acting Minister for Information, Communications and the Arts, and Senior Minister of State

I'm Not able to create new or edit posts!!! Wats de crappy wrong with BLOGGER???!!! Its annoying me now!!

2010-04-07T17:43:00.001-07:00

White 13″ MacBook; Unibody 13″ MacBook Pro

2010-03-26T01:06:00.000-07:00

Not to say i was a fan of computers initially but over the years i've learnt to appreciate the value of technology and how it has brought simplicity to the existing hectic lives. I realized with the increasingly advanced technology evolved around us, we're able to stand out prominently compared to many of those who have little or no knowledge about it. It was only when i started designing advertisements and other works, i came to realisation that i was just an ordinary asian woman who lacked on information about usage of computers. I mean really basic computer stuffs. (Pam Laughs)

Today, I'm glad that i've opened my doors for learning and with intensive exploration i'm finally EXPANDING!!! My knowledge i meant. In this journey of learning, i came across Macbook, the urban friend of newage. I stood outside many computer outlets reading vast advertisements on Macbook and its features. I kept seeing MacBook promotions repeatedly. I couldn't get myself out of it easily. It was just too mind and heart robbing. Lucky enough i was given several opportunities to use MacBook and woah!! It was just so different from any other Lappys that i've used. Not too long later, MacBook Pro took its strong place in my heart. It was love at first sight. And i knew that was an super expensive love. The drop-dead gorgeous jewelry finish MacBook Pro had a very great impact on my mind. I started longing for it. Now, i'm having this expensive love with me for a 3 day trial since my Compaq's motherboard has died on me. In a way i'm glad it did (oooops) now i can assure myself that its real WORTH getting MacBook Pro after using it!

But wait!! There's still something quite disturbing. Lately i've been seeing lots of sale promotions for Laptops. They were going real cheap while the white body MacBook's and MacBook Pro's remained unchanged. Then again, I told myself that to get monkeys you pay peanuts. MacBook's quality assurance can never be equivalent to any of those low-priced out there. Now I just cant decide on which i should get settled down on. The Whitebook MacBook or Unibody MacBook Pro?? In the journey of research, i came across this significant information that was so helpful. I thought it would be useful for you as well. Enough said, as you read the below, i shall continue searching for the best way to get my Love. *Winks

Comparative Analysis

White 13" MacBook; Unibody 13" MacBook Pro

Processor Clock Speed

WhiteBook: 2.13GHz Core 2 Duo
Unibody: 2.26GHz Core 2 Duo
Advantage: Unibody

Frontside Bus Speed
WhiteBook: 1066MHz
Unibody: 1066MHz
Advantage: Draw

RAM speed
WhiteBook: 800MHz DDR2 SDRAM
Unibody: 1066MHz DDR3 SDRAM
Advantage: Unibody

Standard RAM
WhiteBook: 2GB
Unibody: 2GB
Advantage: Draw

Graphics Chipset
WhiteBook: NVIDIA GeForce 9400M graphics processor with 256MB of DDR2 SDRAM shared with main memory
Unibody: NVIDIA GeForce 9400M graphics processor with 256MB of DDR2 SDRAM shared with main memory
Advantage: Draw

Hard Drive Capacity (Standard)
WhiteBook: 160GB
Unibody: 160GB
Advantage: Draw

Display Backlight
WhiteBook: CCFL
Unibody: LED
Advantage: Unibody

USB Ports
WhiteBook: 2
Unibody: 2
Advantage: Draw

FireWire Ports
WhiteBook: One FireWire 400
Unibody: One FireWire 800 (backwards compatible with FW400 via optional adapter)
Advantage: Unibody

SD Card Slot
WhiteBook: None
Unibody: 1
Advantage: Unibody

Backlit Keyboard
WhiteBook: No
Unibody: Yes
Advantage: Unibody

Bluetooth
WhiteBook: Bluetooth 2.1 + EDR
Unibody: Bluetooth 2.1 + EDR
Advantage: Draw

Ethernet Port
WhiteBook: One Gigabit Ethernet
Unibody: One Gigabit Ethernet
Advantage: Draw

Video Out
WhiteBook: Mini-DVI
Unibody: Mini DisplayPort
Advantage: Depends on your needs and legacy hardware

Trackpad
WhiteBook: Conventional with button
Unibody: Glass multi-touch buttonless
Advantage: Unibody

iSight Camera
WhiteBook: Yes
Unibody: Yes
Advantage: Draw

Housing Enclosure
WhiteBook: White polycarbonate plastic
Unibody: Aluminum carved from a single billet
Advantage: Unibody

Price
WhiteBook: $999
Unibody: $1,199
Advantage: WhiteBook

Score (Wins in these 18 categories)
13″ Unibody MacBook Pro: 8
13″ White MacBook: 1
Draws: 9

COMEBACK kid, Steve Jobs

2010-02-18T10:42:00.000-08:00

The COMEBACK kid, Steve Jobs was born on 24 Feb 1955 in the city of San Francisco and grew up in Los Altos. His increasing curiosity about the electronic world then, has now made him a millionaire many times over. The founder of both Apple and Pixar, Steve Jobs is now routinely voted one of the world’s most important business leaders, after having been called a one time fluke for years.

Jobs was 21 when his life began with a significant turn. It was then that he saw a computer that Wozniak (an American computer engineer who founded Apple Computer, Inc. now Apple Inc.) had designed for his own personal use. Greatly astonished by the product, Steve Jobs convinced Wozniak to market the computer as he saw the demand for having a computer to write software for, a computer for software hobbyists.

Apple Computer Co attained its BC on April 1, 1976 having Jobs and Wozniak as partners. Their initial vision was to simply sell just printed circuit boards, but they wound up creating wholly assembled personal computers. The first personal computer the pair introduced was Apple I, which sold for US$666.66. Apple II was introduced the next year, and both were huge industry successes. The 1984 Apple Macintosh was equally as revolutionary.

Having himself fired, in the lucky year that I was born,1986, he moulded NeXT Computer. Unfortunately it failed on him due to the lack or unequal success as he had with Apple before. Not that Apple was doing good either! It was in the verge of bankruptcy. At the early start of 1992, Apple felt threatened by an emerging super-power in the computer business: Microsoft was prominent for providing MS-DOS (Microsoft Disk Operating System) to the IBM PC and its clones, which accounted for 80% of the PC market, the remaining 20% being Apple. It was a strong blow for Apple's dreams when Microsoft grew to become better and more Mac-like, especially after the release of Windows 3.0 in 1990, and the announcement of Windows 95.

It was only after Steve was called back in 1996 that enabled Apple to return to a profitable state, earning the Guinness World Records for the “Lowest Paid Chief Executive Officer,” with his annual salary of US$1. He started working like a mad, to get Apple on track. Steve Jobs who is now worthy of his reputation of hi-tech visionary, aimed to restore Apple's public image which in return had led him to imply a winning and focused strategy that consisted of highly innovative and awe-inspiring products on the marketplace. He made product lines to be viewed as clearer, simpler and yet a powerful in product matrix.

Today, as Apple continues to reign as one of the most innovative and dominant computer companies in the industry, the Steve Jobs bio stands out for its determination and commitment in seeing goals through. Indeed, what attracted me to even write about him of course is my Inspiration (PS). Thanks! the other factor to look back is Simplicity, that never fails to impress me at anytime. In this case, Steve's Jobs motivation is Simplicity itself, ease of use, using the computers to do creative work, and making life easier. So now, I thank You, Steve for making our lives easier.....
** More research on Apple Products Timeline COMING SOON.... Stay tuned.

“Innovation distinguishes between a leader and a follower.” -Steve Jobs

A short video about Steve Jobs

AVATAR

2009-12-21T02:03:00.000-08:00

James Cameron's Avatar is a must to watch movie. Never to experience anything like AVATAR. This kind has been missing for far too long. I've been so attracted to de Navi blue skinned, 10-foot aliens who live on exotic moon that i actually dun mind watching them once again.

Jake Sully's journey to Pandora to become the human mind inside an avatar and the process has greatly reached my heart. Scenarios in the Avatar world was simply mindblowing as they discover an amazing, lush world rich in bio-diversity with fluorescent forests full of trees as tall as skyscrapers and ofcourse not forgetting de flying dragons, anvil-headed rhinos the fearsome prehistoric predators.

You'll be definitely wowed too!! It was an alternate reality that had inserted me so seamlessly into it that I felt like I've actually been there. Avatar is something you dun wana miss!! Its one of the best movies i've watched.

What de heart speaks

2009-12-21T01:17:00.000-08:00

In the quiet of darkness,

in the stillness of night,
I still imagine you holding
me tight.

Your voice is the music,
in my heart is the song,
please come to me now,
it's with me you belong.

Our love is so real,
for it captured my soul,
there's no other feeling
that makes me feel whole.

When god made his angels,
he made you for me.
There's no more mistaking,
we were meant to be.

I can't live without you,
I can't say goodbye,
when I think of you hurting,
the thought makes me cry.

Please don't give up now
because of my fears,
don't dwell on the past,
come dry all my tears.

As the moon is my witness,
and the stars are my guide,
I'll love you forever,
I'll no longer hide.

Come lay down beside me,
I can't wait one more day,
to hear you still love me
the very same way.

Vettai Aarambam

2009-12-17T19:38:00.000-08:00

Its aint easy to get 34 tix for the first show day itself buddy. Yet we managed to get them.Wasnt an easy process though...A burning one infact. All that needed to happen was for that loosers to start quarelling and Pam Krish just needed to sneak/squeeze through her way in the queue.

Not that i'm a great Vijay fan but the feeling to get something done which is highly impossible was what triggered my anxiety to somehow by hook or crook to get the tix. Not 1,2 or 3 but 34!! I enjoyed this thril like i always did...Hahaha But ofcourse it was bloodcurdling as there were so much of furor around me.

I wet my parched lips and followed the queue as though nothing happened at all. My heart simply pounded frantically within me, worrying the bouncer might anytime catch me cutting the queue leading to a super big embarrassement. I had to come up with another contingency plan when i heard voices whispering, " Shit 1 person can only purchase 5 tix max!" Grgrgrgr i bet i wouldnt have thought so much when i was sitting my papers in Uni..

Somehow putting my sixth sense into use, i quickly spoke to a few around me and distributed my $340. I got my 5 tix when it was my turn. I still had to cross my fingers untill i get de rest of the 29 tix. That last guy was down! Hurray!!! I got the 34 tix!!! Hahahaha Phew... Like i said its just another Pam Krish thriller but i loved it!!

Ice-Cream at U-d-d-e-r-s

2009-12-17T18:32:00.000-08:00

It was so amazing!! I enjoyed testing/tasting the various flavours of Ice-Cream at U-d-d-e-r-s. Ok maybe not to the extreme of how Jernel was drooling for it..Lolx The both of us were like testing all the ice-creams there in a row untill we had to hear Lewis sigh, " Oi how long u both gona test sia? I havent even try one lor!" Hahaha..With a sorry-less Oooops eventually Jernel picked Tira-Miss-U & Lychee Matini and I took Whiskey Java Choco & Bailey's Bourbon. Woooo it was mind freezing. We had Waffle with Hershey Choc Spread. By the time i completed my first scoop, my stomache was already hitting the table...I was dead full. Overall it was a very funny experience that i would try not to undergo once again. Amen!

After all it was so easy to make an Ice-Cream. Infact i was so excited to make my own. Jason and I put our foot down to make Hershey Choco Ice-Cream. All that was needed: 200ml milk + 200ml cream + Hershey Syrup (can be purchased at any provision stalls). You got to mix it well, pour it in a zip-lock bag and seal the mixture. After which you need to throw in the bag of mixture in another bag that consists Ice cubes and 250g Salt. Gently massage the whole bag for abt 15mins & Tada!!! You get ur Choco Ice cream... Hmmm I have been a looser all these while thinking ders so much to consider before making an Ice-Cream. Hello i'm talking about the normal ice-cream hor. You still need to have a gd knowledge to make the very chim ones... After so much of what we did, we preferred to go on with the idea not eating our own made Ice-Cream. Hahaha cos we truely believe in Prevention better than Cure

It was a great day to chill out at U-d-d-e-r-s with the Momers.But i'm sure i wont be there again cos 1st thing its very inconveniently located plus it does not have the fantastic ambience to hang out at.

De one i Lurve demost!!

2009-11-19T23:42:00.000-08:00

Hahaha...Sounds weird? But seriously thats de fact. I can never be so proud of anyone else than me. In simple words i lurve myself & i'll do wat it takes to make myself happy.
Actually i'm just so high on accomplishment. I'm sure that only I can stop myself... I'll continue climbing de hill of Learning & shall be wat i always wanted in 2 years time. Its not far though!!

Wahahaha!!!! Worst case scenario...

2009-11-05T19:12:00.000-08:00

A man escapes from prison where he has been for 15 years. He breaks into a house to look for money and guns and finds a young couple in bed.

He orders the guy out of bed and ties him to a chair, while tying the girl to the bed he gets on top of her, kisses her neck, then gets up and goes into the bathroom. While he's in there, the husband tells his wife:

"Listen, this guy's an escaped convict, look at his clothes! He probably spent lots of time in jail and hasn't seen a woman in years. I saw how he kissed your neck." If he wants sex, don't resist, don't complain, do whatever he tells you. Satisfy him no matter how much he nauseates you. This guy is probably very dangerous. If he gets angry, he'll kill us. Be strong, honey. I love you."

To which his wife responds: "He wasn't kissing my neck. He wwas whispering in my ear. He told me he was gay, thought you were cute, and asked me if we had any vaseline. I told him it was in the bathroom. Be strong honey. I love you too!!"

Girls night out

2009-11-05T19:09:00.000-08:00

Two women friends had gone out for a Girls Night Out, and had been decidedly over-enthusiastic on the cocktails. Incredibly drunk and walking home they suddenly realized they both needed to pee. They were very near a graveyard and one of them suggested they do their business behind a headstone or something. The first woman had nothing to wipe with so she took off her panties, used them and threw them away. Her friend however was wearing an expensive underwear set and didn't want to ruin hers, but was lucky enough to salvage a large ribbon from a wreath that was on a grave and proceeded to wipe herself with it. After finishing, they made their way home.

The next day the first woman's husband phones the other husband and said, "These damn girls nights out have got to stop. My wife came home last night without her panties." "That's nothing," said the other. "Mine came back with a sympathy card stuck between the cheeks of her butt that said, 'From all of us at the Fire Station, Well never forget you!'

The bride tells her husband

2009-11-05T19:00:00.000-08:00

The bride tells her husband, "Honey, you know I'm a virgin and I don't know anything about sex. Can you explain it to me first?"

"OK, Sweetheart. Putting it simply, we will call your private place 'the prison' and call my private thing 'the prisoner'. So what we do is: put the prisoner in the prison. And then they made love for the first time.

Afterwards, the guy is lying face up on the bed, smiling with satisfaction.Nudging him, his bride giggles, "Honey the prisoner seems to have escaped." Turning on his side, he smiles. "Then we will have to re-imprison him."

After the second time they spent, the guy reaches for his cigarettes but the girl, thoroughly enjoying the new experience of making love, gives him a suggestive smile, "Honey, the prisoner is out again!"

The man rises to the occasion, but with the unsteady legs of a recently born foal. Afterwards, he lays back on the bed, totally exhausted. She nudges him and says, "Honey, the prisoner escaped again."

Limply turning his head, He YELLS at her, "Hey, its not a life sentence, OKAY!

Night Life

2009-10-14T23:57:00.000-07:00

Budget Terminal in shorts & tee
With my brother at de budget terminal at 4am

Its just another sneak out. I met my brother, marched out to de Expo and happened to bump into my Bani Sweetheart 2gether with her parents. It was some time since i saw her. I missed her alot. As usual a knock on her forehead made it complete. I just felt like biting her & tearing her apart!! Wish i could. Such an adorable thing she is. Bro and i eventually headed to Mustafa, shopped and laughed. (bought tissue boxes) We talked alot. I miss this guy as well. I'm glad we're meeting more often nowadays. We walked back to my place, chilled out for a drink and waited for de Mega Fatness to arrive. Drove tat two around by de, one night stolen car. Basically was employed as their unpaid personal driver. It was fun though.

Yishun, YCK, Hougang, Bishan, Sembawang, Jurong hahaha & finally to Budget Terminal. In Shorts & Tee.This is one of de worst nite outs but we were least bit bothered about how de public will see us. We were eating & rotting in Macs at de airport till 4am. After which, de night took its control & backed us home. Sneaked inside de room at 5am, woke up at 7am started to work and when mum asked" Hey wat time you reached home?! How come till 4 plus you not at home?!" and i had to go like" Huh?! wat you talking. I reached home at 1am. You were sleeping. Where got 4am? You ok not?" Hahaha de day continued & wished i had more of such sneaks out. Probably on de weekends or i'll end up having my head on my office desk (sleeping).

Trebuie să plec cu privire la dieta

2009-10-13T00:22:00.000-07:00

Wat?! Need a translator? Hahaha Anyway it means "I wana go on diet" in Romanian. Honestly its one of de whale of an unsolved issue in me. Its just so tough for me to go on a diet. I've tried and never beat de record of 2 days. So i'm like going on a fish diet since soup diet had taken its failure on me. Its not that i'm fat now but just a little meaty. I'm aiming for 52KG. Its only 4KG far but de process is so raunchy. Its said that your lifestyle and outlook can be greatly impacted including a lack of self-esteem, despair, health risks, and physical strain.Calorie restriction and increased movement are important to consider when selecting a regime that suits your way of life.

I'm getting lazy nowadays. I've even stopped playing my badminton with my neighbourhood kaki & my netball with de NUS kids. I'm in love wit de feeling of rotting at home after work. I wished der was a gym just right to my block. Hahaha too much a wish huh?? Haiz...Its time to get functioning and lose my damn weight. I've to be more disciplined!! And i'm lacking on Fibre which is not good at all. Workout, vege, fruits (sounds eerererer); guess tats de only way out to fit nicely into a new pair of levis jeans in a month to come.

Top 15 tips to lose weight:- (cant wait to read this part right???? Go ahead. Happy Reading & gd luck 2 ur 1st step to weight loss)

1. Keep a journal of everything that you eat and drink. Being aware of what you are eating helps you to plan healthy meals and snacks.

2. Reduce your consumption of fats by half including butter, mayonnaise and salad dressings.

3. Limit sugar treats including chocolate and ice cream to three times per week.

4. Enjoy lower fat sources of protein including chicken breast, fish, beans, cottage cheese, or low fat yogurt.

5. Increase fiber and reduce fat by planning at least one lunch and dinner every week around whole grains, vegetables and beans.

6. Choose low fat dairy products including milk and cheese. When you buy yogurt make sure it does not contain sugar.

7. Have at least two servings of fruit every day. Choosing a delicious fruit in season is a great snack that satiates any sugar craving.

8. Drink water instead of sodas, juices, or alcohol. Most programs that are focused on a quick way to lose weight recommend drinking at least 8 glasses of water a day. Not only is it important to keep hydrated, but water also flushes the toxins and waste from your body as you lose weight.

9. Include at least two servings of vegetables at lunch and dinner.

10. Eat slowly. Give your body enough time to register when you are full.

11. Eat carrots, they are a convenient, satiating snack. When looking for fast ways to lose weight it’s important to have snacks on hand that are not only convenient but satisfy your cravings throughout the day.

12. Choose whole grains wherever possible. Whole grains contain fiber, which gives you a fuller feeling and also helps your digestion.

13. Choose food that you can chew. This increases your fiber intake and the act of chewing makes you feel more satisfied. Eating fruit instead of drinking juice is a great example.

14. Plan your meals and snacks ahead of time. When shopping make a list of what you need and stick to it.

15. The final point in our top 15 fast ways to lose weight is switch off the TV when you eat. Studies prove that we eat larger portions when watching TV, because we are much less aware of what we are eating.

I Love You

2009-10-12T18:56:00.000-07:00

I've always wondered how life would be without my prince. I noe i'll be able to breath but der'll be something missing. De love that i've nvr gotten from anyone. Words cant describe what i feel now. All i can type here is I love him more than anything else. He simply mean de whole world to me. I've not missed him cos i'm holding him so tight, right in my hands never to leave him. Ofcourse just like others there's always misunderstandings, controversy, black looks but it just vanishes like de dust in de air. We've nvr missed a call to each other. NEVER ONCE. Atleast a call to fight. Hehehehe...He's so gd. Probably de only one who can stand my nonsense this many years. I bet he got his PHD!! Yet i'm confused he wana persue more, a lifetime. He may not be de richest guy nor de smartest boy. But i'm sure he's a man with CHARACTER.And i would say nth but thank all circumstances that had brought him to me. Thanks! I've always blamed de one right up der for snatching away many things in life but i'm dumbfound when i got de GEM!! He's de one. I'm born for a reason. A reason to LOVE HIM. I Love You Fatness & I love growing old with you... *winks

Piggish

2009-10-09T01:37:00.000-07:00

Der wasnt even a gap after de stingray dinner yesterday. Its not my fault. When i woke up in de morning, i've already pinned a notice on my mind. Tat i shld go on a soup diet for lunch and a bready dinner. But all i can do is wink at my fat-self and proceed with de lunch treat by my deputy director. It was to thank us for de assistance with PSA Letters at work. Thanks Mui Yim. Tat sweet lady treated de 5 of us to Swensen's. It was a beefy lunch for me. I had my Beef Lagsana; Juicy mined beef between layers of pasta and spinach, accompanied with tangy tomato sauce..Hmmmm Although it didnt really taste as good as it sounds, I was thankful that i had a good laughter with my colleagues. They were so hilarious and made my Friday pass quick. I liked what Sandy was eating,Crayfish Pasta consists of Whole crayfish, crabsticks and fish fillets in tangy tomato sauce. I gotta try tat de nxt time i visit Swensen's. Probably shld corn either de Prak Brothers Pte Ltd or Fat CLub Hema. Hehehe

Its not Over

2009-10-09T01:03:00.000-07:00

It was de last lecture of de sem. It was a quick one infact. Cant believe time has passed this fast. HMT module was killing as usual. It wasnt a big deal for us coz myself & Hafez went "chirp, chirp, chirp, chirp" during de entire lecture depending on de MP3 player tat was recording that serial killer's voice. SO... not too bad i suppose. It was a tiring day and thanks to de killer, he released us a little earlier where it was just nice to capture a good shot outside de lecture room. Fortunately, we had a untrained photographer as well. Typically de formal shot followed by de informal one where without fail i'll become de victim. This time round Musliha has aimed at my hair. "CHEESE" De next i'll see these buddies of mine will be for de exams and "dada" 2 months ofLecture complete break to travel up to clementi.

An Awesome Blast

2009-10-08T20:57:00.000-07:00

Indeed it was an awesome blast up in de a$$. A real unplanned sambal stingray with stir fried baby kailan & limejuice at bugis seafood was a crazy one. I had a great quality time spent with my darling,Meena yest evening. We spoke alot....Probably u'll call it gossip. We can never run out of topics to share. I'm glad this pretty thing is breaking some rules nowadays. That makes me feel little peace at heart. Ofcourse if any soul in her house were to read this, i'll be a dead evil thing in their eyes!! Hahaha thats all i can do. And ooops thanks Meena, for accompaning de half way thru journey to school and returning my books at de library.

Split team exercise was implemented at work and yippy!! Its my turn to work from home. I had ample time dissolving around my dream world; well dissolved i would say. Good rest with de final 1hr lecture in Uni and ofcourse de dinner date with Miss Pretty made my day complete not forgetting de finale of awesome blast up in de a$$.
Looking forward to more of 8/10/09s.

Finally Its Over

2009-10-04T20:19:00.000-07:00

Finally its over but yet to have a new episode started. It can never be over till my kind exists. Its just gona be a short break for me to break many noses tat are little high up in de sky. Inevitably de question is " what am i up to next?" De passion that i've got for my Silverstar Production is just never gona let me be done. I'm never gona stop learning neither am i gona stop fighting de challenges that de world will throw at me. I fear ME and ONLY ME, can stop me. Unfortunately for you, this involves me going back even further. Intentionally getting myself in a fix and then solving it myself is just part of my daily life. Probably tat could be why i'm so in love with my hubby, Silverstar Production. Because of him, it never occurred to me that there might be a chemical imbalance in my brain making me incapable of dealing with tough situations. If someone were to say, I'm having too many problems, tats de reason why my progress is hindered & i'm quitting, then its time he kiss his dreams of luxurious life GOODBYE. Dad always say this "get ur ass hurt to taste the fruit of success. Its gona be painful and take a bit of time but once you've got it u'll want for more"

I was petrified if this whole event is gona be scrapped off.It was more like feeding de animal that always wanted to see me quit.I couldn't comprehend what was wrong. Even my partner said lets drop when discussed with him. My lips agreed but my ME couldnt do so. So many sleepless nights trying to even think if i should just put my legs into this whole thing. It was actually a bad time cos i was physically going thru pain as well. Piles, backaches due to carrying of heavy items during any event preparations. Haiz...It all fell in place but at de wrong time. I'm not a fan of medication but tried to take some effort in altering my whole diet. That was when i actually told myself to direct my energy elsewhere and come out from under the cloud.

My mind was too strong but i was just too exhausted and dried up physically. I did the bare minimum to get through the day and even that would leave me haggard and empty. But ofcourse! As usual i had to laugh at de animal that waited for me to quit. Sometimes blogging helps too. I was able to kick out abit of stress from my daily life and become a little more liberal than I'd like to admit! :) As I blogged, i discovered who really I was and i blogged to keep my sanity. Hahaha it can be a form of a theraphy though. (**pam winks) It somewhat rather just makes me feel good.

In conclusion, i'm glad i was able to pull through this event as well. Its cost was too high but de value in return is way much higher than it cost. I thank a million to all those who stayed by de side of me. Thanks to all de supporters as well. And ofcourse i got to thank Prak, my hero, who helped me go thru this whole thing together with me. Misunderstandings, glares, frustrations, strong voice, demands. We broke these all once again. Without him, life would have been harder. Thanks again.

Symptoms of Piles

2009-09-29T19:12:00.000-07:00

What are Piles?

Piles are swellings found on the inside of the anal canal and can reach the size of a grape. There are four types of piles with varying severity.

• First degree piles are swellings that are found on the inside of the anal canal, bleed, but cannot be seen from outside of the anus.
• Second degree piles are found in the same location but stick out of the anus when there is a bowel movement, but will return on their own shortly afterwards.
• Third degree piles also are larger and stick out just as second degree piles do, but will remain outside of the anus and must be pushed back in.
• Fourth degree piles cannot be pushed back inside. They permanently rest below the anus and can become extremely swollen and very painful, especially if the blood inside of them clots.

Symptoms of Piles:

• Bright red blood coming from the anus, frequently noticed when wiping or in the toilet.
• Lump on the anus
• A slimy discharge of mucus, which may result in itching
• After a bowl movement, discomfort and even pain
• A feeling that you are not finished with the bowel movement, even when you are.
• Soiling underwear (this is typical of third or fourth degree piles).

Causes of Piles:

Doctors have not determined the exact cause of piles, but have determined that there are some risk factors:

• If you are typically constipated
• If you don't eat enough fiber in your diet.
• Chronic diahrrea
• Pregnancy - increased pressure of the baby on the blood vessels and abdomen
• Family history
• Cancer in pelvis or bowels

Diagnosis:

You will be examined by your general practice docotor, and will probably include a rectal examination. This will more than likely include a a proctoscope, which can be passed into your anal passage. You may also be referred to a hospital specialist for this procedure. At a hospital, your large bowel can be viewed with a colonoscopy.

Treatment:

• Keep bowel movements soft by eating plenty of fiber filled foods, such as wholegrain cereals and vegetables and fruits.
• Take regular warm baths to prevent and relieve irritation that occurs.
• Gentle laxatives may be acceptable, but be sure to ask your doctor befor using a laxative.
• Soothing creams, suppositories, and ointments may be able to help you with the itchiness and some of the pain. Some of these products are available without a prescription.

There are several additional out-patient treatments that you can ask your doctor about. They include:

1. Banding: A small elastic band will be placed just above the pile to cut off the blood supply, leading it to fall off after a few days.
2. Sclerotherapy: An oily solution called sclerosant is injected and causes the pile to shrink and fall off.

Inpatient treatments include:

1. Haemorrhoidectormy: Piles are surgically removed while you are under general anaesthetic. This surgery is typically only done on patients with third or fourth degree piles, and when other treatments have not worked.

Some EASY Home remedies:

. For itching & pain relief insert tablet size frozen clarified butter or coconut oil on piles

. To get immediate relief from external piles pain sit in hot water tub for at least 15 mins and let the piles be exposed to water...guaranteed relief within minutes...it is effective for internal & bleeding piles as well.

. A patient with piles must make an all-out effort to tone up the entire system. Exercise plays an important corrective rule in this condition. Movements which exercise the abdominal muscles will improve circulation in the rectal region and relieve congestion.

. The black berry fruit is another effective remedy for bleeding piles. The fruit should be taken with salt every morning for two or three months during its season. The use of the fruit in this manner during every season will effect a complete cure and save the user from bleeding piles for his entire life.

. The juice of the fresh leaves of bitter gourd is also valuable in piles. Three teaspoons of the leaf juice, mixed with a glass of buttermilk, should be taken every morning for treating this condition. A paste of the roots of the bitter gourd plant can also be applied over piles with beneficial results.

. Ginger is also useful in this disease. Half a teaspoon of fresh ginger juice, mixed with one teaspoon each of fresh lime juice and fresh mint juice, and a tablespoon of honey, constitutes an effective medicine for piles.

. Onions are valuable in bleeding piles. About thirty grams of this vegetable should be finely rubbed in water and sixty grams of sugar added to it. It should be taken twice daily by the Patient. It will bring relief within a few days. Onion is also useful in the treatment of dry piles. A crushed onion, skinned and roasted in aches, may be applied with beneficial results.

. Sesame seeds are also valuable in piles. They can be taken in the form of a decoction by boiling twenty grams of seeds in 500 ml of water till it is reduced by one-third, or as sweetmeats. Ground to paste with water, they can be given with butter for bleeding piles.

Angry Passenger

2009-09-29T01:00:00.000-07:00

Watsup wit you people? Breathing in Singapore is already a big challenge and to move around with these asians here is another. Gotta have great determination. Everyday journey by train and buses is like living hell alive. Poor Kids like me reach work and uni like some squashed oranges. They go like this " I rather die than to have wasted another 4 minutes waiting for de damn train" Like wat de hell?! Can't you people just leave your homes earlier and have a relaxed journey? Nah..Thats so tough huh? Then Why bother glaring with your ugly eyes in regards to my ontological status as you shove ur whole fat body up in de train? You rather use ur RICH FATHER'S car than a public transport.I'm sorry you had to wait behind me, however, cant you just widen ur eyes in de morning to see tat my passage way has been hampered as well?! How can i, just like you create further peril for myself and inconvenience to others? Unless, as I may conclude from your act, that you would consider my bloodied and broken body sprawled on the MRT Track proper punishment for not being blind and delaying you by 7 seconds from what must have been a very important engagement.I wish i was born for a father who at least had a car to send me to my destinations. I wished!!

Missing Love

2009-09-28T18:15:00.001-07:00

A Sister's Pain

We've lived together for only 4 yrs 4 months.It took us so long to meet. But when we met,I wished i never saw you. You've grown older.Ur skin has soften. I saw little growing wrinkles. I forgot to realise, you too will age.

I was de most happiest person when i layed my head against ur chest. Its was de most peaceful sleep eva. But i'm unfortunate as it lasted for only 50 days. Is that all?It was time to part. I couldnt say a word.You said good bye and kissed my forehead.I actually died tat moment. You could have just pushed me to my grave instead. As our fingers lost de grip, i had to say goodbye.I turned back to see you cry, i walked with a painful heart. I never felt my legs this heavy. I dun noe when i'm gona see you next.But i only knew i've missed my soul with you.I'm missing you so much!!!
I wished i never had you....

You promised me you'll wipe my tears when i cry. I'm crying now, for your love.Where are you?

You said "You are the dearest one,Don’t think You are alone in this world Your brother is still alive for you" Can i ask for more. Can you stay by my side till my Final Day?

You told me "Remember me,The moment you undergo,The toughest circumstance of your life. Believe me, Sister Your brother will sacrifice his life For your sake" I dont need your life brother. I just want you to hold my hand and say I'm Here.

I heard you say "Oh Sister,Don’t take the test of your brother.If you really face problems That shatter all your hope, Then close your eyes, you will feel brother near you" Look, why should i feel you? I'm your sister. Why cant i just have you next to me??

Am i asking too much?? Oh God I plead you to let me live de rest of my life with my brother.Years are shortening. With so much of pain and tears i ask you GOD, pls send my brother to me. I'm yearning for his love.

To de God i say:- If thats something you
cant do for me, then take MY LIFE before
his!!!!

Unusual

2009-09-28T00:49:00.000-07:00

I dun noe wats wrong... But it definitely feels unusual. De missing of daily calls explain it all. I'm glad tat u've become more matured. Ur eyes are opened wider than eva. New friends of totally different level. But frend, i wana let u noe tat we gotta take things litle slow. Sometimes its about enduring what you have today. I mean ur AGE. I'm just worried for you. I've been thru life that has deprived me of my childhood. I was forced to..I didnt have a choice. But i'm enjoying every bit of my today, my teenage life. I want you to have tat as well. Its not about making sense at all times. Its alright to be a little easy at times. I dun noe how to put my words across but u just seem so unusual. So different from de frend i knew just a few months back. Pls try not to be a 31 when you are a 21. Pls dont be so evolved by de world of spiritualism. I want you back. I want you back as de frend i used to love alot...

And infact expectations were never in our way. Looks like it have now. Yes, there's no excuse for my absense but i always regarded a frend, no a BEST FREND would put herself in her frend's shoes. I promise tat de absense was not based on IGNORANCE. Der were project submisions, exams and my event in de same week that i possibly cant miss as well. I always knew tat we'll sure to nudge each other if der's anything urgent. No call from you eased me down tat everything shld be fine.

Frend, i'm really sorry if tat has made you feel that i'm not important as compared to those who were physically present tat day. I'm lost for words and its very disturbing till today. Not de issue but de missing calls from you since then. But i realize something, that life's never promised. Be it materials or relationships.

A Woman's Strength

2009-09-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

Its a mind-boggling experience though. But its energy draining as well. Its de kinda thing in life i wanted, where i'm challenged to juggle with a full-time career, part-time education, family, friends, love and ofcourse my company events. Tats how i've learnt de essence of time management. I realize how to cope with many things and yet LOVE every moment of life.

This "DANCE UR NITE OUT 09," has been one of the toughest challenges. Gotta say it was a bitter one too. Many sleepless nights, misunderstandings, rejections. (sighs) But this education has stabbed my eyes on who really backs you up in need. No matter wat, i'll NEVER bend my head but hold it high and look the world right in the eye!! I thank my father who used to tell me that strength does not come from physical capacity but from an indomitable will. I've de will. I'll fight for wat i want. I'm grateful to my dad for de valuable nights he spent on building my inner, making me understand that I should smile in trouble, gather strength from distress, and grow brave by reflection and if my heart is firm, whose conscience approves de conduct, shall persue my principles unto death.

Ignorance (in general) is something i cant tolerate. Its vital in life you take ownership in wat you have promised as thats wat we call LIABILITY. You dont say smt tat you cant do and dont stab de back when its UR FAULT.Look, we're here to learn and if you think this learning process is too tough to handle then U QUIT. Dun grab my legs along cos i'm never gona quit.

I accredit this event's gona be a hit. Its gona set de name for both me and Silverstar Production. I'm leaving it to de one's watching me up der, MY DAD. I love you so much and once again thanks.

Day 1

2009-09-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

Start's always fun to start with untill you realise its de way life has to go on... Like it, I put my fingers crossed, hoping that my page should be filled with tears of joy. Here i start on a gd note:-

Friday's joy is just a hr away to pat my shoulders and say " Pam, your weekend is here!!!" Time flew so fast this week after a gd public holiday on Monday. Infact, yesterday i was on Wednesday till Jernel nudged me "Pam!! Its Friday tommorrow!!" And guess wat?? Dieting was a success today! Finally... I did it! Something to enlighten my day has to happen to kick my friday fast and it was the Ice Cream session for the staffs as a token of appreciation. Its not the ice cream that pulled de smile on my face but de thought to thank de staffs. == Thanks to you too

The day was too gd... Too gd tat my heart's asking for more of it. Its just human's nature i suppose. (*pam giggles) I bought a dress and a pair of heels for Dhiv. I bet they'll look so pretty on tat little gal. Cant wait to surprise her though. *Got the things for de price i wanted.

And now its time to say tata, hoping mywhisperedtears say good on Monday =D